I’m broken. I accept the pieces that make up me. I have all the pieces, most of the time. Some are burnt, some chipped, some shine with minimal of rubs and they all fit together. I’ve successfully stuck parts back together with a little adhesive and others have required additional duck tape on the back to hold them in place. The parts that externally only seem to have hairline fractures at times show their true colours and fall out of place to the floor. Like all good porcelain sometimes it miraculously bounces and at others it smashes into a million pieces. I contemplate sweeping it all into the dustpan and throwing it in the bin. But then when I’m in a better frame of mind I’ll never find the pieces. I meticulously pick up the pieces, joining one piece to the other ensuing I have all the parts to stick me back together.
I yearn for help, but they’re my pieces and indicative to me, if you hold the pieces in place, will they merely fall at a later date. So I meticulously collect the pieces sticking the pieces slowly as I go. A piece is missing, I look on the floor. I see a piece. I pick it up. I place it in the gap left for it. It fits. It’s the wrong colour. But it fits. It’s not the missing piece. It’s a random other piece. I can leave it in place but I’ll end up a mix match of other peoples solutions to problems that weren’t my own. I know I shouldn’t glue it in place. I know I should take it out. Pop it in a Tupperware for someone else to claim when they realise, it’s lost.
Are we all just a little bit broken? Broken wings just trying to learn how to fly? I will continue to fall and my pieces will continue to scatter across the room, I will continually mislay a piece here and there. If you find a random piece please don’t throw it, not recognise it for it’s importance… to me. If you have a piece in your grasp I live in hope that you’ll lovingly place it back where it fell from without making the gap bigger. Albeit my fragility isn’t your responsibility I would merely hope you have the compassion to handle with care.